What is your story? What is the story that you are living? What is the story that you are always telling others about? Not only is this extremely important to know, but coming to this realization may help you to look through a new perspective and in turn transform your life around.
So those who’ve known me personally may know how I was as a child, a teen and a semi-adult. I was raised in an average home which was often filled with negativity, comparison and verbal abuse. Our main form of communicating was through raised voices or verbal attacks. Although I know my family’s intentions were good and I do not deny that we all loved one another, we were not the type of family to ever express those emotions out loud. To be honest, aside from when I was a baby, I only remember saying ‘I love you’ for the first time to my family just a few years ago.
I also grew up with old fashioned and semi-strict parents. They were hard to please, extremely judgmental of others, prideful and quick tempered. Fast forward to my teens and 20’s this is who I grew to be. I was an extremely sensitive, overly judgmental, pride overloaded and non-communicative “victim”. Since high school, I never had a best friend, and I was always quick to judge another person, point fingers and I was probably the biggest gossiper known to mankind. Behind all these defense mechanisms, I was always feeling extremely hurt and depressed. I could never understand why I couldn’t have amazing friendships and relationships, the career I wanted or do the hobbies I envied others for doing. I lived through a very narrow minded perspective on life.
My awakening journey didn’t begin until recently. Just like many people, it took something tragic to occur for me to finally open my (third) eye and turn my life around for the better. My mother was sick and I believe it was my younger brother who saved us all. He gave us the gift of The Law of Attraction. It is then that my spiritual journey and personal growth began.
What I see now that I hadn’t seen before is that the story I was telling was what I kept manifesting into my life. The more I said I couldn’t trust females, and that I couldn’t find a best friend, the more I fought with my friends and the lonelier I felt. The more I told the sob story about dropping out of college the farther I went from re-enlisting. The more I claimed I never had money and that I had a shopping addiction the less money I had in my bank and the more I shopped to fill personal and emotional voids in my life, thus increasing my financial debt. The more I complained about my job the harder it became and the more drama that ensued. The more I told people I was cynical and sarcastic and that I had difficulties communicating the bitchier I became (a bully even), and the more I would completely shut down during a serious conversation or confrontation. I had the outlook that the whole world was always out to get me.
I wrote a post recently about my gratitude list that I repeat throughout the day as mantras and affirmations. I’ve been practicing this in my thoughts, during meditations and out loud in the car or on my gratitude walks. This lifestyle change has completely helped me to turn my life around for the better. The story that I now tell is one that I am extremely proud of and grateful for as I have come a long way.
I believe that anyone could manifest the great life too just as long as they are willing to enter their inner self and finally persevere and put to rest all their troubles that no longer suit them. Once we have accomplished our mental and emotional detox over time (patience is key), we must realize our true intentions before we try to request each wish. Be sure that the wish is motivated by positivity and love. Make sure that the wish does not harm others because the last thing we need is to create more negative karma for ourselves when it is completely preventable. Although I think it is ok to have some wishes saved for material things, I do believe that we should also send out love and healing to the rest of the world. By being selfless we grow as a whole and help to increase our positive frequencies and create good karma that comes back to us. If we look at our past misfortunes as lessons then we can start learning from them and appreciate what they have come to teach us. There are many beings on this planet that may have lived lives in the past that they are embarrassed or ashamed of, but it is never too late to forgive ourselves for it and create a change and balance out that bad karma. Love is the answer to everything in life. Let us give and receive love effortlessly and unconditionally.
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